Make yourself happy. I’ve been thinking, and everyone that I talk to say how beautiful the flowers are that I give to friends. Everyone says how unique my paintings are, and how much my painted trash can or painted vases are. No one takes the idea and uses the idea to do it themselves. No one paints their own trash cans or buys themselves flowers, and say to themselves, "I am worth it." The conflict comes in when I buy a peanut butter chocolate pie with whipped cream. It takes about 3 hours to eat and 3 months of pain and sorrow, and pure anguish to get the fat family which has crowed into the other fat family and they all have a merry good time.

800 people sing Happy Birthday. Can you feel 90,000 people giving you a standing ovation for 10 minutes, like Emmett Smith winning the rushing record for NFL and getting your name on the ring of honor. If you can imagine that you can feel that way I do when people give Actual Lives applause.

Here I am, a 55-year-old man performing on stage, mopping floors, and selling paintings all over the country. I am a legend in my own mind. Why do I feel so lonely? My time by myself is the best time of the daytime with my positive self. A time to feel my new adventure. What I’m going to do next paint trash cans, paint vases, paint pictures, write stories that are exciting and different and the big one is Actual lives and when we are going to perform next. Sept.15 20006 performance in Denton Texas. To Texas Women’s University and get paid for it as well as performing for a lot of beautiful young women that are studying rehabilitation. Could you believe that?

The lost Gospel of Mikie

It’s the little things that count. The flowered hit man is one of the most different things I do. The other day I got my hair cut at super cuts and the lady and I got into a discussion about her flowers and her lit candles. I told her about spraying the flowers and she told me about the packet that is given with the flowers is aspirin. I was shocked and said “I though that that was the secret sauce.” She laughed and said no. A day later I took a flower by super cuts. She was not there and I thought than this was not meant to be.

I was in Wal-Mart and gave one to the fry cook that cooks the chicken tenders. She smiled and said thank you.

The Lost Gospel of Mikie

The little things that you do for other people, birds, squirrels etc. that make me happy. Watching and feeding the birds and squirrels is one of the most productive and the most beautiful things I do. The other day I was the flowered hit man and delivering flowers to V.S.A. and no one was in the office and I thought they were out saving the world or healing global warming. So I began walking into the commons area, the coke machine, copier and magazines and I passed the most beautiful girl with a full head of red hair. I passed by and stopped and turned and gave her a stem of flowers and I said, “You have the most beautiful red hear I’ve ever seen.” I gave her the flower and was gone like the wind. The flowered hit man strikes again with out any warning and like the wind he is gone.

Buying flowers for my self the most long lasting thing I can do for myself. You have to make yourself do it. The doctors can help by adjusting one’s meds. You are going to have to do it yourself. “It works” Try it Mikie likes it. One day I was buying flowers at fiesta and I always give a flower to the girl that helps me with my breakfast taco’s, Another day I give flowers to my favorite shoe repair man, another day I may be giving flowers to the Wal-Mart employees. I buy flower first for myself.

SEX

One spring morning I was looking out my kitchen window at my pots that the squirrels had eaten the flowers out of and two squirrels were playing very frisky. It was spring and the hormones run wild. I was watching and the two squirrels were in this doggie position and starring at me and I heard “What are you looking at’ this isn’t a zoo.” I left and came back and when I did there were two squirrels in the hanging plant and they were playing then in a flash one squirrel does this jack hammer type movement and then is gone and the female starts playing in the damp dirt.

Another spring morning I saw two pigeons on the top of the trailer next to me. One pigeon was strutting his stuff around this female pigeon. I mean strutting his right wing was extended and he was walking around the female pigeon and sticking his chest out. This happened for several minutes.

Finally the female gives in and the male in about 3 or4 seconds it was over. This male is strutting his chest is poked out and I hear “I’m the man. I did that. Yea I did it."I look at the female and she is just standing there saying, “That’s it. That’s all. You’re all finished?” This male is still strutting his stuff and saying, “I’m the man yea that’s me.

Does that story sound like the God in me telling me these stories.

Make yourself happy. Get out of your comfort zone. Buy yourself some flowers and say I’m worth it the little thing you do to make different people happy. Give flowers to your shoe repairman. Give a flower to the ladies that make you a taco or chicken tenders.