Grasshopper
A long journey begins with the first step and that begins with buying your self flowers over and over. The morning when nothing is moving but the clock and your spirit, intellectual, self is conversation with your physical self. The Vail between spirit and physical self is thinnest in the morning and wakes up with the sun. This is before sun rise with your living flowers and your conversations from the day before. I try and write stories which keep me happy. I think about calenders of my paintings that I'm doing. I watch birds, squirrels, butterflies, and many home grown flowers.
This article is from a brain damaged man that has graduated from the University of Texas with a B.A. in psychology. I have been with actualives a handicap stage performance for about 8 years.
I am a happy camper

Bonnie
This is a story that I'm trying to put on stage. Bonnie is out side her R.V. and is fixing her water line. I go outside and help her. She comments on how her Leakey water hose sprayed her bottom and when she walked away. She was wearing old white sweat pants that had been sprayed with water and this pair of black bikini panties were walking away and all I could say was "Thank you Lord."
She came over and started telling me about her boy friend, who is married, and not telling her anything. She is upset and anxiety. I ask her to lay on her stomach and I put on some rain meditation tape and I gently touched her back outside her t-shirt. After the tape was over she slept and finally said WOW! The next morning God says to me "Your home grown therapy works."
Later that day, She was talking about how her son was coming to visit and how she wanted to get out of her entertainment gig which isn't regular. She wanted a change but "I'll do you." The next morning God says to me "I'LL DO YOU."
She and her son are now gone and all I can say is thank you Lord.

Respect
This is a story that I'm trying to put into a stage performance.
Center stage is me and center back stage is Chris, the director with a sign, Dr. Chris, director. A and B actors are stage left talking and talking and talking. I go over to them and ask if they could please be quite. Actor A turns to me and unloads both barrels, "Who do you think you are? Telling me to be quite. I am handicapped and here is my card and he shows me a yellow card with H and says If you are the only one that it bothers that's alright you don't count. I am backing up with both my hands in front of me.
The light focuses on me, Chris a C & D actors. C & D actors are talking and talking and talking and I go over and ask them to please be a little quiter. C actor unloads "Who do you think you are? If you are the only one we bother you don't count here is my handicap card, show me.
I call my psychiatrist and ask for her help. The next day I'm telling my psychiatrist about these events and say I have cancer, I have brain damage, and I'm the last one in line with my family and the phone rings & rings. then the emergency ring "Dr. Chris I'm waiting out front. My response was "I'm about to blow a fuse. "
I got home and called Dr. Chris and said "I think it is very rude to interrupt my session. She said "Don't you think it is ironic That handicap want to be treated with respect but don't want to treat others with respect.

Superhero Update
Mild mannered mop boy has been downsized and now has been created "Vacuum Man." I've been with Actual lives for about 8 years and God says the same thing. "You play to packed theaters every time and you bring the house down when you dance to bad to the bone on stage in front of 300 people in Dallas, Texas."
I was in my psychiatrist office and the other session was coming out and He said "I like your paintings and I said "thank you." He said "How do you come up with these ideas?" and I said "buy yourself some flowers over and over and say "I'm worth it."
Later, I said to my psychiatrist "I don't think he will buy himself flowers." She said "I don't think so the next morning. God says "some seeds will fall on cement."